live life for the sake of living

So, I'm on a lot of avatar websites. Lately I've been "loyal" to a couple who are in "fierce competition" with each other. Some of the most common responses I see from people on site A (smaller than site B) is that the community is nicer. I always disagree. The only reason site A seems to have a nicer community is because there are less people around to be jackasses. 150 users online at a time as opposed to site B's 50k+ users online at a given time proves this. They want site A to flourish? It's got to grow. It won't stay afloat and deliver all those nifty things the users want without more donaters. As it is the economy is rather boring. People complain left and right about "inflation" on site B, but the prices of items there is rather proportionate to how much gold one can make. Trust me, I haven't donated at all this year and I've made almost 1 million in gold. Making gold on that site is so easy a cave person could do it. xD

Site A's community isn't much better than site B's community. Site A tends to have quite a few dead threads, which means there isn't much debating to be done. I can't tell you how tired I am of all the idiot teenagers there who think it's totally awesome and cool to post sexual jokes/references in their thread titles and in their threads. And when I mention it, it's all "There's way worse stuff out there," or "Are you really that sensitive?" What I want to know is when the hell this happened. When did people start becoming so desensitized to things that before were not spoken of in public? The sixties? The twenties? What upsets me the most, perhaps, is that on site A there seem to be an absurd amount of whiny, spoiled, and generally annoying teenagers or "young adults" that can only grasp the importance of "Omg party!" I actually enjoy discussing site economies, and learning how they work. In short, I have yet to find a stimulating economic discussion with anyone on site A. At least on site B there's a guild I can go to for that. It's rather enlightening. : D

Perhaps even more worrying to me is the fact that I crave this same sort of discussion offline, but have yet to find it. I will give the benefit of the doubt to Life in that I have only just graduated from high school, and that I rarely ever go out. I discussed recently with someone how boring life is, and they replied I ought to try new things. I can agree with that, but trying new things has to happen on my terms. I won't be going to any clubs, sorry.
I was also alerted again that I am too picky in my alleged search for a mate (mind you, I couldn't care less about a mate right now). Is it too much to ask for someone who would enjoy pondering the mysteries of space and time, and asking archaeologists why they disturb the resting places of ancient pharaohs? Is it too much to ask for someone that does not have sex on the brain, or who can only see life as a bunch of materials? I have called myself materialistic before, but that is merely one side of me. There are many much deeper parts of me that no-one has seen.

I'm bored to death of these avatar communities I frequent (not so much site B, but I don't ever seem to be online the same time as anyone I know there) and of life in general. I want to "spice things up" but have no idea how. I'm not necessarily asking for pointers, though. I'm the sort of person who wanders through the meadow, wondering just where the hell I am, and trying to figure out how to get to where I want to go. Even if I get frustrated, I like solving problems.

Maybe once I get to college there will be a new sort of life that I find much more stimulating than the present. Maybe I'll start doing things the way I want to do them. Maybe. I hope so, because I am too damn bored.

///endrantthing